It's nice to have somebody-don't ya think

Sorry I haven’t been as frequent with my posts lately. I have been so tired with this holiday season. Yet I will say that I was surprised to see an old friend this past Saturday (11/26/05). Remember, the post I wrote a couple of month’s ago about hearing from my ex, the apology he wrote me? Well I saw his god-brother at my 2nd job. We hadn’t seen each other in at least a year. He looked quite handsome I must say. I’ve known him since elementary school and we are still friends despite the fact that his god-brother, my ex have not spoken in almost 5 years. I told him that I didn’t have any animosity towards him and that if he needed something I would help him out.

I also was able to meet his fiancé for the first time. In the past he had referred to her as his girlfriend which was throughout the years. So it was a pleasure to finally have a face and name to the person. Also to my surprise he will also be a dad and he knows he’s having a son;) I am really happy for him and wish him the best.

After he left I began to think about everyone I know who is either married, in a relationship, dates a lot, has kids, or has a baby on the way. I came to the conclusion I was the only one who didn’t fit in any of those categories. I wonder sometimes is there something wrong with me or what is holding me back? Yet at other times I think, THANK GOD, I don’t have to put up or worry about anyone else and their bullshit.

I know that I am a lonely person; I’m so set in my ways of getting stuff done for myself and by myself. I’m not sure if I would be able to handle a relationship of any type. My tolerance for ignorant behavior is so low it’s not even funny. I’m to the point that if anyone says anything that I find offensive, I don’t have an issue just walking away from the conversation. LITERALLY. No “excuse me”, “sorry, have to go”, “could we talk about this later”. Nothing, I’ll just walk away.

I know I don’t need anyone to be happy. But I miss some of the simple things such as holding hands, cuddling, kissing, just as any other person. Yet for me I know I couldn’t just do that with any ol’ body. It would have to be with someone I cared about.

So I guess with my dilemma it could be summed up as this:

I want somebody, but not just anybody.

Someone who is affectionate, but not TOO smothering.

Someone who is witty, not a smartass.

Someone who is challenging, not a rug.

Someone who wants me, defects and all, not someone who want a “returns & exchange” policy even after the 30 days, 60 days, ….etc. You get the point.

I want someone to love me, is that so bad?

Nothing like family on Thanksgiving

I hope your Happy thanxgiving was as memorable as mine this past thursday. I woke up and it felt REALLY NICE not having to work at either job. Bumbed around for a while until around 2pm. Took some food over to my aunt's house. that my mom had prepared before going out of town around 2:40pm and then went back home. For some strange reason I thought the affair started at 5pm but apparently it started at 3pm. WHOOPS. So needless to say I get there by 5pm and of course almost all of the food is gone. I was able to make a plate of food for my mom and then grabbed some ham for myself.

I saw the usual family members as well as some others I didn't recognize. Also there were new additions, from what I've heard, was even able to meet one of them by the name of Kamia, new born baby, 10 weeks old. She was so pretty but unfortunately there was some controversy because her daddy who is my cousin is black and her momma is white. One of my aunt's who will remain nameless is not so keen on people interacially mixing in any way what so ever. I was proud of my cousin because he kept a cool head, even though I wouldn't fault him one bit if he had flipped his lid. She was disrespectful and embarresing to say the least. All I could do was shake my head.

After everyone left, I stayed behind to help my Aunt charolette clean up some more. We had a good conversation for about and hour and then I went home. When I think about my past and my life I am thankful for the family I have and wouldn't trade them in for anything in the world. yet I realized one important lesson. You have to live your life for yourself and do what makes you happy. If people don't agree with how you live your life, then they need not be in it.

So since today is Thanksgiving, I'm going to mention one thing that I'm am thankful for. Having a choice.

happy Pre-day Thanksgiving!!!

Well it's ya girl, coming to you live again via job #1. Been here since 8am and have just been chippin away at the hours. Decided to stay until 8pm so I can make up for lost time since I wasn't able to come into work on Monday. had Chinese food for lunch and boy was it good!!! It was my 2nd time having them and I must say there food was excellent. They deliver to the job so that was even better. Will post up the name and number so you can give it a try yourselves.

right now it's 5pm and Im just thinkin about tomorrow, the big Turkey Day. Since my parents are SUPPOSE to go out of town, I have been left with the impression that I will be celebrating over a relative's house, which is fine by me. I know I just have to take the food over before the whole gather get's underway. LOL and since I just live 5 minutes away from where the gathering is taking place, I'm all good;)

Right now I'm just relaxing taking a bit of ME time. I'm thinking about what I have to be thankful for and if I'm so thankful for it why don't I realize it when it stares me in the face instead of just going thru it like it's not their? I guess I'm thinking about that because of the convo I had with my parent's on Sunday. For me unfortunately I find so many faults within myself, it's hard to see the positive side of any situation.

So I'm debating if I should renew my bond with an old aquantance. My therapist. The more I've been thinking about it, I think it might be wise. I don't feel focused with my life and haven't for quite some time. Now I don't want anyone to think that I'm crazy, but hell I am human and I'm far from perfect. I'm just stubborn. So as I think about this year, I realize that not only should I give thanx to my family and friends. But also to my therapist. amen.

Oh how great thou are for fried chicken

Sunday, a time for prayer and reflection or in my case time done and served at job #2. This past weekend I was over Danielle’s house because of Saturday, we had the 6AM meeting and then Sunday I stayed over as well because we both had work and I knew I would be cooking that evening since we planned to have a get together at her house.

Well the day starts off with me taking Danielle to work at 8AM; I go back to her house and sleep until 12PM. Then I get dressed and make my way to work, suppose to be there by 2pm but I’m pretty sure I didn’t get there, till 2:10pm. Well to start off the work day, the damn time clock didn’t work on 3 cpu’s so I had to do a manual time edit. Another co-worker Dan was there as well as was about to get off of work.

The evening that wasn't meant to be.

What's up to my people's;) Yesterday I had work at job #1, got there just a tad bit late...........oh about 10am or so. Did my work and then burnt out at 3:30pm. Went and picked up Danielle from her gig aka job #2 for me. We go to the hair salon to have our hair done and we don't get out until 9:15pm. I was suppose to go to a private birthday party that started at 8:30pm but didn't get out until 2am. Yet since I knew I had a 6AM meeting to go to the next morning (Saturday 11/19) I decided against it and just decided to crash at Danielle's home for the night. I must have been sleepin my ass off (pretty as usual) because she kicked me a couple of times, since she said I was starting to snore. I NEVER snore. lolol because since I'm such a light sleeper sometimes I wake my own ass up. lol

Baby Showers and November problems

I had to be at job number 2 from 12 to 5:30pm. A nice mid shift since I had to be at a baby shower for a co-worker later on that evening which was right across the street.

But being the late busy bee that I am, I had to go to Target and get my present for Courtney's baby shower. It took me a good 40 minutes to get everything together than zoom my ass across the street to work so I could clock in and relieve Danielle so she could take a lunch.

Around 2pm she left the job and I stayed until 5:30pm when Joe came and relieved me. I went to the back and changed clothes and took myself to Culpeppers to wait for them. Well my dumbass apparently didn't register that it wasn't being held and Culpeppers but actually at a place called Berkshire Grill.

Saturday

Im not sure if I'm having buyer's remorse or what but I did take the bike out this morning for a lil spin. Since I haven't been on one for more than 10 years. It was a bit intimidating to get back on one. Especially since I have to re-learn how to shift gears all over again. A bit wobbly so I just decided to make one short trip and BACK to the house. Within an hour of getting back into my house, my mom calls me to help her in the basement rearrage all of our too-many-damn small appliances. After that FUN chore, I went to my room to play some Resident Evil 4 on my Gamecube.

Chilled out till I had to be at job #2, which is where I am now. Right now I'm just waiting for the store to wind down. I've done my closing duties and I'm also looking at a Cover of Sports Illustrated with Steelers Safety, Troy Polamalu on the front. Lord JESUS I wish I could grab some of that hair, becuz sista would not let go, ya hear me?

2 faced employees and biking

Good evening to all. hope your Friday evening finds you well. Not full of backstabing employees who smile in your face and talk behind your back. Let me give you an example. Today while I was at work in my main building, a coworker asked if I wanted to go another building with her to pass out some invites for her birthday party. I agreed and we both went to the other building to revisit our friends since this was the orginal building that we both started in before being moved this past month. WE spoke with our old co-workers catching up with them and making sure they were ok. So much had changed on our floor, more than half of the cubicles were empty to make room for the new people. AFter a while we go back to our current building.

When we get back, we here that one of our co-workers felt she just HAD to let everyone know that we were gone for 45 min. My Supervisor who i think is really cool didn't really even trip off it. It was just blown out of proportion because this one chick can't keep her mouth close. and before you go thinking she is some model employee let me you this. She thinks she's better than anyone else because she went to nursing school yet she didn't quite cut the grade so she was kicked out. problem is that whenever she talks to a patient on the phone or to some important high ranking person in our company she just feels COMPELS to let people know that she was a NURSE.

Now lets do the math here folks who in they damn right mind would go through all that hell of nursing school to be a nurse and just quit to become a god-damn pharm. technican? THANK YOU it doesn't make since. So three of us also in the same pod look at her from time to time thinking what the hell do you think you are doing? She catches us looking at her and turns herself away because she is juswt too damn embaressed that she got caught in one of her lies.

On another sour note I along with 3 other co-workers decided to order Pizza hut, we put in our orders and we wait for the food. FINALLY it gets to the job after waiting an extra 15 minutes. Why was our food not right? Well let me take that back why was 3 of the 4 pizzas not right. We called the location and let them know that they made our pizzas incorrectly and needed to bring us either a) new pizzas that were CORRECT or b) our money back. Needless to say we all ended with an extra pizza to take home.

Well enough about work. After I clocked out, I went home to pick up my mom to take her to the Cheesecake factory at the Saint Louis Galleria. To celebrate her finishing up her breast cancer treatment. Afterwards we go to Sports Authority to check out riding bikes. I've been wanting one for some time since I was trying to get back into the swing of things with excerising. So I was only going there just to price bikes yet the salesman was very helpful and when he showed me one bike from a company called Mongoose I was very impressed and it also helped that it was 50% off. So since I had the money I decided to splurge and give myself an early x-mas present.

AFter also getting my accessories we finally go up front to ring up my purchase fit it into my mom's towncar and away we go back home. My girlfriend, kamina wanted to go out. Orginally I was going to but as soon as I got home I just shut down.

When priorities take a shift

When priorities take a shift.

As you well know from this saga called MY LIFE, that one of my best friends is Danielle. She has been going thru a rough patch lately because one of her close friends was shot on Sunday. He is currently in the ICU, and this past Tuesday his heart stopped, yet the dr. was able to restart it. The dr. also stated that any brain activity if any is minimal. So, there is the issue now of “pulling the plug”. The reason I bring up the issue with Danielle is that she is the godmother of his child. He has no other family except an aunt. His aunt told Danielle that in his will that she is to have full custody of his baby girl.

A special day and long live EBAY

Do you know what today is? It's my god-baby's b-day. She is 1 years old!!!! Earlier this week I emailed my best friend to let her know that I would be sending something for Aislyn and to wish her a early b-day. Yet of course I couldn't pass the opportunity to call and leave a mini birthday song on their voicemail to her as well. Even though I don't get to see the whole family nearly as much as I would like to, I don't miss the fact that she is just growin up so fast. So I'm trying to think what to get her for her b-day. Clothes are always great, I sent her a Build-A-Bear doll in my last care package down to them in Florida. So if you have any good idea's please pass them on to a sista.

Diamonds are forever.....Bullshit I hate diamonds....unless they are purple;)

Well, today at work, the "spectacle" that I was waiting for is supposedly postponed until tomorrow. Will keep you updated with the details. Yet beyond this work was the same, but we were able to wear jeans. BECAUSE it was casual week. But did Jasmine read any of the big signs on the walls or even remember opening any of the emails sent to me about the occasion? NO. My dumbass comes in a nice skirt, nice top, and nice boots. Cursing my short-circuit brain for not remembering at least this event. Alas, I take off my boots and put my isotoner slippers and begin my work.

A pie in the face..plus a mystery guest at job #2

Well today, was our store meeting. AKA throw a pie in a manager's face for $120. If you need to refresh your memory you need to go to this post. Let me tell you I was tired but NOTHING and I mean NOTHING would make me miss this team meeting. Even if it was 7 IN THE DAMN MORNING!!! I get up about 6am and call Danielle to wake her up. I pick her up around 6:40am and we make our way to the job.

With me being a speed demon I make it to the job by 7:05am. Just in time to clock in and make it to the front of the group to hear them call the Appliance's team to the front so we may pie the Management person of our choice. Well since interesting things had been taken place for the past week, a certain management person M.IA. (Missing in Action). Needless to say since this person was no longer a part of the company so who we WANTED to pie in our original line up was shot to hell.

Music is such a beautiful art....

This evening I went to the West county Shopping Mall off of Manchester and Highway 270. Upon entering the mall thru the Lord and Taylor Store, I could here a faint melody that was beckoning me to the inner area of the mall. The music kept getting louder and stronger when I finally reached the main entrance of Lord and Taylor connecting to the rest of the mall, i saw this man sitting at a piano and his music just made my soul lift. Do you hear me? I love piano music especially since I used to play, it was infused with jazz as well. You could here the saxaphone just jammin along with the piano and let me tell you something. Even though I only stood around there at first for 5 min. As I was walking this huge mall I felt that I could still hear the music even from the opposite end!!

CHEATERS CHEATERS CHEATERS!!!

Last night I went to the opening night of Cheaters at the Fox Theater. Let me tell you something, it was the best play I've been to so far. I was so hyped and excited about it I went to work, but really didn't do any work. Only thing i did productive while I was at work was take off my glasses and put in my color contacts. lol Afterwards I went to the MAC counter at Famous Barr in Northwest Plaza, to get my face done. Well now that the holidays have kicked in, you have to pay $40 to get your face done, I was like HUH? But one of the girls was cool enough that she did my eyes for me and when I finally got home around 5pm I finished up the rest.

I had to get ready so to primp myself. I put my crazy curls up so they wouldn't get wet, took a nice bath, but made sure the water wasn't too hot. Don't want my curls to droop too soon. Then I pulled out my Romance Shower Gel and went to TOWN!!;) AFter I that I dried off and put on the matching lotion io the Shower gel, (now I just want to take this time to tell you that I have every piece in the Ralph Lauren Romance set and only use it for special occasions.) Then I followed the lotion withe Ralph Lauren Romance Tender Notes. The perfect fragrance since it's not too heavy as the orginal Romance.

Anyway I'm finally surrounded and scented in my fragrance. from neck down. I decided to go without stockings since the skirt I was wearing was long enough and plus I was wearing boots. So I first put on the boots, walked around in them for a while to get the feeling for them and then put the rest of my outfit on. After double checking in the mirror that everything was ok, I head out the door. We were all suppose to meet up to go get something to eat but seeing that everyone was running a bit late, I decided to get something to eat before hand.

Finally get to Danielle's house to meet up with everyone and we chillout for a while until we depart to go get Kamina. Who by the way Danielle and I went half on her ticket to treat her for her birthday. Since there were 7 of us going, we had to take 2 cars. I really wasn't trying to drive seeing that WHENEVER anything goes down, I"m 90% driving. So I just suck it up and we then continue on to the FOX and park. We get to the front gates and get out tickets from Danielle. Kamina and I go to the restroom while the other 4 people meet up with the rest of our party who was also going to the play with us.

After we find our seats, the show starts ON TIME!!!! Now I'm not one to crack jokes about black people being on time for stuff. Yet I won't lie I was quite surprised and pleased. That would mean that is the 2nd event this year that was African-american that I've been to, the first being Kai's cousin's wedding this past September. The opening music starts, the lights go off, and BAMB!! I hear the sweet music of Brian McKnight's voice throught the speaker system. I must say the man sounds AMAZING. Even if he did cheat and beat his wife and that's the reason she left his ass......but I digres. Back to the play, the cast for this was excellent. Everyone actor in it I recognized.

Anyway if you don't want to be spoiled about the play then DONT READ ON!!!
If you do want to be spoiled then just keep reading. lol

Anyway Brian is the lead character of this fictional drama. He's a player pure and simple and has a problem with commitments. His girlfriend, the main one has been with him thru thick and thin and on the side he has some CRAZY chick and i mean crazy like Fatal Attraction Glenn Close crazy. ya hear mean? Well he screws up things with his girl and then one of her old friends comes back into the picture. When I saw who this old friend was................I screamed my head off. Because the only other person I could think of who could take my mind off of Brian McKnight was THIS man. The man I'm talkin about is Michael Jai White. You know from SPAWN or better yet the brother from Trois 2, not the one the psychatrist was married to, but the one she was messing with on the side......YES THAT ONE!!! All i have to say is when his shirt came off on that stage........................DAMN IT. (just shaking my head).

Well anyway Im not going to give away the rest. If you want to know how it goes, u just have to see it for yourself. Of course by the end of the play. My feet were talking to me and I was ready to go home. So since the other driver was closer to home, everyone ELSE piled up in my car so I dropped Kamina back at her place and then the rest to Danielle's. I finally made it back home and unwound and relaxed. I spoke with Jonathan, a coworker who went with us to the play. He called to make sure I made it home okay, we talked about shoes lolol since we are both some shoe fanatics and then said our good-byes.

Overall the night was good, could have been better in some aspects but hey, u work with what u have right? anyway. It's morning now and I'm about to get ready for work. It's also PAYDAY so you know when a sister needs therapy she does what:?????????????? That's right she shops;) I holla. SMOOCHES

EXTRA TREAT: For those who would like to catch the play in their town go to this website to view the dates. http://www.imreadyproductions.com/ hope you enjoy it as much as I did;)

And on a totally seperate note: I feel that when I go out, I want to look my top notch best. That means my outfit is FLAWLESS, do you hear me? Now being the B.I.T.C.H. (Beautiful Intelligent Together Classy Hershey) I am known to be at times such as these, I feel I need to take it upon myself to at least school women on one very important topic. Please my sistas and I'm not just talkin about black kinfolk, I'm talking about women OVERALL, you know what let me take it to another level, the HUMAN RACE as a whole. Please.....Please......PLEASE....do not and I am saying this only so you will not make the same mistake as this poor soul has......Your WHITE SHOES. Should be stored away in your closet, this is now November, you may get away with wearing an off-white color such as BISQUE or something to that effect. Do not be caught in a dark ass dress or pants for that matter and have on white shoes. Now for me personally I would take it as far as not wearing white period below the waste as far as pants and skirts, but hey that's just me.

So again I HOLLA take care and PEACE OUT!!!!!!!!!!

I got my wig done HEYYYYYYYY

Wassup my people. It's the lady aka chin checka coming back to you once again. I took off work today so I could go get my hair done. My co-worker aka one of my best-friend's, Danielle also came with me as well. We both got "pretty-fied" for the CHEATERS play tomorrow. We arrived at the hair salon, 11am. We didn't leave until 4:20pm. What can I say, we both have some serious hair on our heads.

Danielle was suppose to be at work 3:30pm, but boy she didn't get there until 5pm. So I hope she doesn't catch a case with management. Especially with how everything went down when Trina just left and called Danielle to let her know that she had somebody else watching the department. Kinda foul, but I would understand if she had a prior engagment but damn from my knowledge she didn't.

So needless to say Danielle was heated on the way to work and still when she finally arrived. She looked really pretty though. Her hair is the shit and she got her eyebrows done for the first time. After I dropped her off, i made the long trek home and now I'm watching this documentary on Cinemax called JUVIES. About young kids, juveniles who have been sentaced to prision with adult terms. Really something.

Also this evening I FINALLY was able to speak with Kaiysha, one of my other best friends who lives in Florida, whose child is my god-daugher. We had been missing each other's phone calls for the past 2 weeks. She was telling me about Book club and if I wanted to join. Knowing that i am a huge book nerd. I of course joined and can't wait to start reading.

So from the Midwest, City of the Lou, Missouri, residing in North County. I say peace out and I love Turkey Legs cooked in Red Wine sauce. Oh and check out my wig

Also a totally different note: Yesterday I had my nails done, eyebrows arched, and picked up my outfit from the cleaners. So you know I'm not playin around don't ya?