Hey people. Right now I'm at UMSL but I'm here not doing school homework (if you can believe it). I'm here because at job #1 guess whose network decide to take a bit of a nap? So I'm not having a good day already and have to top it off with that problem. Well I get fed up with the place and inform my Principal that I'm leaving to go to UMSL to get work done from the job so I don't waste anymore time than I already have.
I leave about 10am and don't get a parking spot till 10:25. I kinda of forgot that the campus would be a tad bit more crowded in the morning than in the evening. So I finally get to the library which is where I am now and I'm finally trying to find a cpu. I get on one and get to work. Just got done with the major stuff for today. That I am happy about, but then I realize I have to go BACK to work......NOT COOL.
So besides that I didn't go to work on Monday, because I damn near had a meltdown with the damn Black Friday shit at job #2. Put in over 30+ hours from Friday to Sunday, that's 3 damn DAY's oh and not to mention did I mention the regular hours I put in at job #1? I swear even having Thanxgiving day off I felt I was still working because I had to deal with cooking the food on that day, not to mention prepping some of the food a couple of days before. Last week was just a nightmare.
So I called my boss Monday morning and told him I needed the day off so I could recoup and catch up with school homework. So I go to UMSL campus and get some work done in my English class. Which by the way I feel absolutely wonderful about. Yet as I'm leaving the SSB computer lab on campus I start crying because I'm failing my Economics class. I hate the subject yet I passed Macro but for some reason I cannot pass Micro and I've taken the class more than once, at least 3 times.
I decide to see a counselor while I'm on campus. I go to the Millenium Center and sign-in to speak with a counselor. Not shortly after meeting the woman I break down and tears and I let her know my dilema and I ask her do I have to pass Micro to still stick with a Business degree and she told me unfortunately yes. I just shook my head because I'm at the point I don't nor will I take the class again. So if I have to change my major than so be it.
She asks me questions in regards to what I like to do and I informed that I have many interests but I enjoy technology mainly with computers. I told her how originally I wanted to be an MIS major but after taking some of the courses and failing I realized I was not smart enough to go that route. Which is just another disappointment of many. I don't like math, actually I HATE math, unless it's simply arimathtic, I avoid it like the plague. Yet she informed me that I had to also have calculus. By this time I couldn't see anything pass my pair of glass because of my tears. I just kept shaking my head and thinking I can not keep doing this.
I asked her what were my alternatives if I didn't go the business route anymore and she drops a bombshell on me that I would have to take some foreign language classes. Do you know how long it's been since I have had a spanish class? 10 YEARS!!!!!!!!!!! So here are my fucked up options, don't do Business take foriegn language classes or do Business and take Micro all the fuck over again and still take a damn Calculus class.
She suggested I take some test on campus that will help me figure out what I'm good and and possible career paths. I just nodded my head and took the information. I asked her if there were any classes I still needed to take in regards to what I call the "bullshit" courses and she stated that I had some I still needed to take so I signed up for one course for the next semester. I thanked her for her help but I still felt horrible when i left. I didn't even bother going to my Economics class that evening, I went home and just cried my eyes out.
Then I thought things couldn't get any worse until yesterday. I had my favorite class that day, business writing so after class, I needed to take out some money and I remember there was an ATM on campus. I go to withdraw some money and as I'm waiting for it to dispense, the machine is malfunctioning and it states that it couldn't dispense the funds. So immediately I get to a cpu on campus and I check my account. The money was shown as being withdrawn. IMMEDIATELY I call my debit card company and explain to them the problem. They said the problem should reverse itself within 48 hours. I was so pissed off about he situation I stated and if that doesn't happen then what? She states it could take up to 90 days to rectify.
I told her I would be waiting on Thursday and if I didn't have my money by then, they would get another call from me. So I was just superpissed with that shit last night and decided to go to Hooters to calm down. I watched some basketball games and decided to call it a night. I am just having the worst week. I can't wait for xmas break.
