These are the days that I hate!!!

It's official I hate the Tmobile 3g slide phone, this stupid ass phone has me to the point that I'mma have todo a hard reboot..to get some apps to work again. Lord knows I went to the Android Market to try to download a replacement app to cover the app that won't work that came with the phone!!!!!!!!!!!!!

The Twelve Days of Christmas Update (Christmas Joke)

The Twelve Days of Christmas Update

Today's global challenges require the North Pole continually to look for
better, more competitive measures. Effective immediately,
the following economy measures are to take place in the Twelve Days of
Christmas program :

The partridge will be retained, but the pear tree never turned out to
be the cash crop forecasted. It will be replaced by a plastic hanging
plant, providing considerable savings in maintenance.

The two turtle doves represent a redundancy that is simply not cost
effective. In addition, their romance during working hours could not be
condoned. The positions are therefore eliminated.

The three French hens will remain intact. After all, everyone loves
the French.

The four calling birds were replaced by an automated voice mail
system, with a call waiting option. An analysis is underway to determine
who the birds have been calling, and how often and how long they talked.

The five golden rings have been put on hold by the Board of Directors.
Maintaining a portfolio based on one commodity could have negative
implications for institutional investors. Diversification into other
precious metals as well as a mix of T-Bills and high technology
stocks appear to be in order.

The six geese-a-laying constitutes a luxury which can no longer be
afforded. It has long been felt that the production rate of one egg per
goose per day is an example of the decline in productivity. Three geese
will be let go, and an upgrading in the selection procedure by personnel will
assure management that from now on every goose it gets will be a good one.

The seven swans-a-swimming is obviously a number chosen in better
times. The function is primarily decorative. Mechanical swans are on order.
The current swans will be retained to learn some new strokes, and therefore
enhance their out placement.

As you know, the eight maids-a-milking concept has been under heavy
scrutiny by the EEOC. A male/female balance in the work force is being
sought. The more militant maids consider this a dead-end job with no upward
mobility. Automation of the process may permit the maids to try a-mending,
a-mentoring, or a-mulching.

Nine ladies dancing has always been an odd number. This function will
be phased out as these individuals grow older and can no longer do the steps.

Ten lords-a-leaping is overkill. The high cost of Lords plus the
expense of international air travel prompted the Compensation Committee to
suggest replacing this group with ten out-of-work congressmen. While leaping
ability may be somewhat sacrificed, the savings are significant because we
expect an oversupply of unemployed congressmen this year.

Eleven pipers piping and twelve drummers drumming is a simple case of
the band getting too big. A substitution with a string quartet, a cutback
on new music, and no uniforms will produce saving which will drop right to
the bottom line.

We can expect a substantial reduction in assorted people, fowl,
animals and other expenses. Though incomplete, studies indicate stretching
deliveries over twelve days is inefficient. It we can drop ship in one day,
service levels will be improved.

Regarding the lawsuit filed by the attorneys association seeking
expansion to include the legal profession (thirteen lawyers-a-suing )
action is pending.

Lastly, it is not beyond consideration that deeper cuts may be necessary in
the future to stay competitive. Should that happen, the board will request
management to scrutinize the Snow White program to see if seven dwarfs is
the right number.

Happy Holidays

Santa

My laptop is in hell!!!!!

Mad as hell my laptop caught a virus earlier today, so its down for the count, Thankfully I was able to back up my  important stuff (Itunes library, documents, photos, and anything else I could think of). What really f***ed up is that I get this the day after my COUSIN call stating he had a virus on his laptop and wanted know what he should do about it. So I give him the number to my boy Trenton Knew who is a wiz at this type of stuff and of course he fixed my cousin's laptop perfectly. Guess who has a Tuesday morning appointment with him? THIS ONE  <------------ UGH!!!!!!!!!!!!

So If you need an alternative to taking your cpu someplace and getting it fixed...hit up my homeboy he is a genius!!! Oh and thanx cuz for jinxin me!! Trenton  has a website http://thecomputercaretaker.com/

Dreams of Trust and Friendship

This mornin I'm up at 4:45am AGAIN but I woke up from a very interesting dream. I don't know why I get up so early especially when I'm so exhausted from the previous day. I'm up right now watchin "Save the Last Dance" and listening to Joe Sample's "Invitation" on Pandora. I'm still workin at my temp job downtown, haven't been able to get to the gym in a while because of my work schedule, so of course I'm starting to see the reflection of the neglect in the mirror. Have two possible job leads and weighing all my options.  I obviously want to get back into my old schedule of working in the morning and being off by the afternoon. God I miss that so much;) I miss my old students and even more my old co-workers. I know some of them are adjusting quite well into their new roles, while others wish they were back at Wellston or at least someplace else.

Last night I had an interesting dream. I was on an island, the moon was high in the air with the stars. The water was so clear and I was on the sand watching the waves just rolling softly to my feet. I was in a soft white linen skirt with a matching top and I my hair was lose and the wind was just dancing around me. I start to enjoy a stroll on the sand and I see a stranger sitting on a large rock...

I walk up to the rock and just stare at the person trying to get a good look at them. I can't make out there face its just so damn hazy. I shrug my shoulders and decide to move on. Then all of a sudden the person starts    to talk. I know its female because of her voice. She asks me, "Are you happy?" I don't answer I just keep staring at her. She asks the question again, and I respond, "Why do you want to know?"

She shrugs her shoulders and states that she's curious. I don't respond immediately, I sit down in the sand in front of the rock and state that there are somethings I'm happier about this year than I was last year but not everything is where I would like it to be. She replies, " If you want things to change for you, you have to change the situation around you." I listen to what she is saying and think about it trying to figure out how to apply it to myself. She then continues, "Trust is a commodity that can not be bought or bartered, you need to figure out for yourself who is on that list and who is not."

I respond, "I do know how to trust." The stranger replies, "Yet do you know how to forgive?" I remain quiet then I responded, "Out of sight out of mind." The stranger shakes her head from side to side and says, "Think on what I am saying"

She slides off her rock and sits directly in front of me, her face clears up and I finally see the person that I was talking to was...myself. Her outfit is directly the opposite of mine. While mine is the color of the moon, her outfit is the color of the midnight sky. She holds her hands out to me, and I just stare at her. I'm not sure to what to make of this gesture nor am I sure I trust it. I slowly get up and walk backwards away from her and her outstretched hands. She looks at me, nods and smiles and says, "Some people are with you for a lifetime, others for a moment, be sure keep those friendships that mean the most and don't hesitate to make new ones." She then vanishes along with the rock she was perched on.
 
I then turn back to the ocean and sit down and stretch out on the sand looking at the moon, twinkling stars, and the midnight sky. In the distance I can hear an annoying beeping sound, trying to figure out what the hell is trying to interrupt my peaceful paradise. I slowly start to lose focus and within a few minutes I open my eyes and I'm back in my room with a blaring alarm clock going off in my room. I sit up on my bed and reached for my laptop and decided I want remember this dream and decided to blog it. Dont get me wrong I normally do have weird ass dreams but this one was definitely a notch on the bedpost.

Waiting for Superman

This weekend a friend of mine asked if I wanted to see a documentary this weekend called WAITING FOR SUPERMAN. At first I didn't know what to make of the title until she informed me that it was about the dire situation our nation faces with the public educational school system. We hooked up at Plaza Frotnenac since that was the only theater in Saint Louis that was showing this movie. I must say that it was very enlightening and in my opinion paralleled my experiences while working in Wellston.

I don't want to give the movie away so I will just say that there is only one more thing that I wish the director would have highlighted more in his documentary. I wish he would have put more focus into why School Districts hire corrupt/questionable administrators that hire the teachers who fail to teach our children. It amazes me from what I hear from colleugues the track records that some of the administrators have and wonder how they were ever able to be rehired.

Yet unfortunately to me it comes down to the GOOD OLE CLUB. The era of those that have been in the system for such a long time, their connections are so embedded in the system that its easier for them to find jobs even though they don't deserve them compared to those who are not as established yet and are trying to make a difference.

Overall I enjoyed watching this documentary and hope you will show your support and see it as well. Let me know your thoughts.

On this day....the Lord has made....

Last night the weather was wonderful with the full moon skipping over the rippling water of the lake, marshmallow clouds, and the Icarus winds. Now this morning I was awakened by the steady drops of heavy rain. This day is lookin up already. Enjoy your Friday;)

I spy an outfit that is fly

Went to the mall today, among other places and went into one of my fav stores, Anthropologie, had 3 very nice outfits that caught my eyes. Take a look see. What's your fav outfit?

My Review of Shimano MO76 Mountain Bike Shoes - Men's

Originally submitted at REI

Lightweight and comfortable on and off the bike, the Shimano MO76 MTB bike shoes ease new riders into cycling with versatility for commuting and recreational use.

Shimano MO76 Mountain Bike Shoes - Men's

Great shoe for the recreational cyclist

By msjazz79 from Saint Louis, MO on 8/28/2010

 

4out of 5

Sizing: Feels half size too small

Width: Feels true to width

Pros: Durable Sole, Easy to use

Cons: Uncomfortable SOMETIMES

Best Uses: Cycling

Describe Yourself: Casual/ Recreational

Was this a gift?: No

I've been cycling for about 4 months now and I must say I've found it to be quite addictive. Well I had lunch with a best friend of mine and she cycles as well and informed me that she had bought some cycling shoes and told me how much of a difference she feels when she uses her shoes. So I went to my neighborhood R.E.I store after doing some web research and found myself interested originally in the Shimano RO76. The sales lady informed me that since I was taking a cycling class that the RO76's probably wouldn't be the best ones since they have a slick bottom and I could possibly slip. So she recommended the mountain version, the MO76, exact same feel just a tread bottom so I can walk with the shoes.

I tried them on and they felt perfect I would recommend for those interested get a size up. I normally wear a size 10 in womens, which is a European 41, I had to get a 42 to give myself some comfortable room and that is even with cycling socks on.

Only gripe I would have is that after cycling for about 30-40 mins at the tip of the shoe, your big toes might become a bit sore. I've heard this from other cyclists as well who wear cycling shoes in general not just with this particular model.

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(D)evil in (E)verything (S)pecially (E)ducation

Well its only been a few months since the Wellston School District was permanently shut down. Heck it was still surreal to me until I turned in my keys. Since then I've been on my grind looking for a new job. I can't even say how many apps I've put in, yet nothing seems to appear. I've probably have dealt with more spam mail regarding job inquires than spam in general.

At this time I also can't help but be pissed off everyday when I think of our situation with the district and how it was handled by DESE. It seems we were doomed from the get-go when school re-opened back in August '09. Apparently that summer, DESE had decided mainly with their newly appointed Commissioner of Education Chris L. Nicastro that Wellston would be shutdown. Unfortunately the memo wasn't passed down to the Wellston employees until December, when in fact we should have been told back in August when we had our 2 day workshop at Washington University.

We had a feeling something was going on because normally DESE reps would come to the school in the winter months to see how things were progressing, they didn't last year. Then we started to hear rumors that the school district was possibly going to be shutting down. Staff even asked the Superintendent if that was the case and he lied to them and told them it wasn't the case. Yet more tale telling signs were pointing more and more in the opposite direction.

In all this drama, the biggest sign to me was the lack of supplies for the 09-10 school year. I didn't receive not a lick of supplies unless it was paper. I didn't understand how the main office thought we were suppose to just make due with our heads barely above water. I felt bad for my teachers and rest of staff when I had to let them know that I couldn't even provide them with basic supplies and they had to end up coming out of their own pockets to provide for their classrooms and students.

Then in December we have "the meeting" at the Normandy middle school off of Natural Bridge. Commissioner of Education Chris L. Nicastro is their on the stage along with some other members of DESE, the reason I can remember her is the Bright Blueberry suit she wore that was hurting my eyes and I was sitting in the back of the area listening to the B.S. that was going down.

The main auditorium area where we had the meeting was packed. Parents, Staff, and students from both school districts were there. The Wellston crew knew something was up when we found out how the so called farce of a "forum" was run. They passed out pencils and pieces of paper for you to write 3 questions down. WTF? Normal forums have a microphone for people to form a line and ask questions. Apparently the other school district knew to plan appropriately to control the event. So Nicastro informs us that she has recommended to the DESE board that Wellston School district to be shut down and "merged" with Normandy. Which in all honesty is a joke, its not a merger its a takeover. When Normandy's Supt was talking about the "new" experiences the Wellston students would enjoy at Normandy with the new facilities (weight room, track and field, and other renovations) the Wellston staff and parents were wondering what does any of this have to do with bringing up test scores?

Nicastro barely answered any of the questions that some of the Wellston area had written down, and when others asked about their questions she dismissed them and stated they would be answered in the future. One of the more important questions that was asked, yet poorly answered was, Why you would put our district with another that is not accredited? Her response is that they are partially accredited, we are thinking to ourselves that means nothing, Wellston was partially accredited as well and look at what is happening to us. Finally one of our staff stood up and exploded about how this situation was handled. I along with others applauded. Out of all this mess we felt we had been disrespected not only by our Supt by not being up front and truthful but also by DESE for their lack of respect for us.

After the meeting I went home and just thought about how much politics plays in education. Never saw it before until that night. I thought I was disgusted that night, the following months after provided just as much drama. We found out that our health coverage would end effectively by end of June instead of July or August. We had heard rumors through the grapevine that apparently Nicastro had informed school districts not to hire any Wellston employees. Again I'm not sure if its true or not but given how she handled the meeting that December I wouldn't put it past her.

Another problem I have is that technically Wellston was given 2 more years to show improvement, to me if DESE felt there were problems at the district then they should have replaced the present Supt with another that they felt would get the job done. She could have done that but from what I've heard supposedly she had an axe to grind with the Supt and decided to do away with him and the district at the same time. To me if that is the truth, then she is no better than the people she is supposedly trying to get rid of.

Yet the icing on the cake as far as irony goes is back in May when I found out on the radio that Normandy School district had fired all their staff, I was like wow, at least we found out back in December when some of Normandy staff were clapping and applauding the "merger", I just thought to myself, karma is a bitch n a half. There is no loyalty at all.

After dealing with this situation, I realized that I would not want be an educator at least in the sense of teaching at a school. Times are different from when my mom used to teach versus now. Back then your occupation was more stable and guaranteed. These days you hear not only here but nationwide the school districts that are closing and staff that are losing their jobs.

I guess the main point I want to convey is that people might look at Wellston and say the staff and parents failed those kids. To some degree I will say that there were certain staff that shouldn't have been retained or for that much even hired and it would have helped to have more parent participation yet some parents acted like kidds they damn selves.

Yet the main point is that DESE failed us. They didn't have the backbone to step in and intervene in the situation instead they stayed on the sidelines and pointed fingers and just WAITED for the district to fully corrode itself from the inside without any chance. If this is the kind of leadership that is the head of DESE then unfortunately I have a feeling that Wellston won't be the only school district to close in the coming years. To me DESE not only stands for the title of this blog but also (D)oesn't (E)ncourage (S)uccess (E)nough.

My question to DESE is this. If you couldn't deal with a district the size of Wellston, regardless of the issues, what in the hell makes you think that you are qualified and up to the job to deal with school districts the size of Normandy, Riverview Gardens, and Saint Louis Public Schools?

Even at the end of this crazy & drama filled road, I'll say I will miss my students, staff and parents. Maybe not ALL of them, yet you know who you are. The experiences I have learned I will keep with me forever;)

Nice day

Hello to all this Saturday evening. Had a nice day today, enjoyed a bootcamp class this morning than chilled out at home. Around 6pm I met up with a few grade school friends (Hannah and Amy) out in St. Charles and we kicked it enjoying drinks, veggies, fruits, and of course that wouldn't be complete without 3 adorable little kids in the mix. We had fun gossiping like women do;) Left a few hours later and went back home to chill out. I must say I had a wonderful time and can't wait to get back with them for Hannah's bday;)

Goodbye Mr. Tree

This morning my dad informed me that Asshole AmernUE are coming to the house to cut down a tree I planted in the back yard back in 5th grade. When I received my little twig not even a foot high I never thought it would have grown into the huge giant that I've known since then. When I first put it back there I remember going into the basement and getting a little shovel to dig some dirt out, putting the roots in and making sure it wasn't leaning. I patted the dirt back in place and made a promise to water and take care of it since in my recent past my attempt with goldfish hadn't prove to be too fruitful. Over the years as I grew up so did my pine tree. So this morning since it was raining I wasn't able to go outside and get a close up look at it to say goodbye. So I went out onto the back porch on the 2nd level of my home and took a few pics. I'm at work now and just thinking about it makes me sad that when I go home my tree won't be there to greet me;( Yet I'm hoping the rain will stay steady so at least by the time I get home it will still be there one more day;) R.I.P. Mr. Pine Tree

A day in retrospect

1. "No one can make you feel inferior without your consent"

2. “Great minds discuss ideas; Average minds discuss events; Small minds discuss people”

3. “Remember always that you not only have the right to be an individual, you have an obligation to be one.”

Eleanor Roosevelt quotes


As I sit up in bed I think about my day today. Currently I'm listening to Joe Sample's "Living in the Blue", a smooth mellow Jazz piece that would put any person's mind at peace. Today I woke up to thunderstorm clouds moving across the skies. They had yet to release their frustrations onto the rooftops of the houses in my neighborhood. My father needed to drop off one of our cars up at the shop so I tailed him and brought him back home.

I came back home and got dressed, made my morning low carb drink, packed up my laptop and made it to work. Just made it in time before the rains finally started to making their debut for the day. While there today, I'm on the web lookin at the different job internet sites. I've looked at so many it seems as though they are blending in together. About noon I take a lunch and leave the school, thinking about the last few weeks I have at the high school. I get back to the school at chill out in the staff lounge. Speaking with coworkers until the 2:30 pm bell rings.

After work I go up to UMSL and drop off some financial aid forms. As I'm walkin through the Millennium Center, I see a young lady with her cap and gown smiling wildly and running for the doors. I pause and look her and wonder honestly if I will ever witness something like that for myself. I shake off my doubt head to the top level via escalator, drop off my forms and then make my way home.

At home, I relax before I go to my zumba and boxing classes. When the time arrives I go to my zumba class, excited and ready to put in some work. Then I dash off to boxing classes and I let a rip into the trainer and his punching gear, just replayin my day and all the doubts that have started to creep up on me. With every punch I feel it startin to recede and by the time I'm done, I can literally feel my fears being release through the torrential sweat that is coming off my body and being wiped away by my shirt and boxing gloves. I'm tired yet I feel great.

I finish off the evening by going to Schnucks, off of Olive near the Delmar Loop and pick up some items for my mom and then bring them home. I'm praying for some more rain. You'd be amazed how much one can find reflection in mother nature.


While watching a movie on tv this evening, somebody had said quote 1 at the beginning of my blog. I looked it up and saw that Eleanor Roosevelt was the originator. I thought about if for a few minutes and thought it is true. Nobody can make you feel the way you do without you granting permission.

So after I googled the 1st quote, I saw that she had some other quotes that caught my eye, hence quotes 2 and 3. I thought of quote 2 and thought, damn this is somethin else. It's nice to have intellectual convo's with people. Yet you will run into people who wanna put your name in the gutter. Especially people who say they know you when in truth they don't know the real deal. Reality is a bitch somedays. Quote 3, now there is an eye opener. It states its okay to be who you are, even if you are weird and unique as I am. Some people get me and understand how I am. Others have tried and failed. I'm not changing to kiss anyone's ass, so if you don't like what you see, then simply be gone and take your sensitive ass someplace and ponder under a big ass tree until lightening strikes that bitch down.

Life is not a box of chocolates, if that was the case I would be eating coconut clusters out the ass and be happy as hell. Life is about ups and downs and Lord knows I have had my share of them, I've learned from MOST of them. But what I will no longer deal with are OTHER'S people's ups and downs and then try to blame their issues on me. I've had to come to terms about myself and I'm trying to fix the issues as they come along. If you feel I'm a downer to your life, then keep my name out of your life via mind and sound. I guarantee you it has worked for me.

Wow....I guess that boxing today did alot more than just give me a physical workout today.

Fwd: Sometimes I just say the darnest things;)

A student of mine came in the office to say hello. He asked me if I had a good Mother's Day yesterday. I told him I wasn't a mother. He then asks me if I want to have kids in the future. I tell him I do but haven't found a man crazy enough to marry me yet. lol So then I told him, when my husband puts the ring on my finger at the wedding, I'm going to yell "GOTCHA", then proceed to hit him upside the head, drag him into the limo, speed back to our home and lock him in the cellar for the first week until he has come to terms with his fate. My student looks at me bug-eyed and runs out the office. Some days I just love my job;)

When its time.......

This past month, I've really started to think really hard about issues that have been bothering me for quite some time. I go to sleep with them and wake up with them. I wake up angrier than the day before, and all I can say to myself is why am I letting this stuff get to me so badly. You ever heard the saying, "It's the little things, that get you by" to me it's also the little things, no matter how insignificant that people do to show you how much they care.

If you have someone in your life that doesn't appreciate you and only wants to be around you when it's most convenient for them or on your dime, it's time to clean house. You can only deal with so many broken promises and dreams, sooner or later you have to face reality.

My Review of GNC Multi Multi-Gel, Softgel Capsules, 120 ea

hey there

Well this weekend I've been apartment sitting and dog sitting for my sis while she is out of town. I had a pretty good birthday this past Wednesday hanging out with friends at my fav place Subzero, Thursday I had a busy night, Friday I went to Wellston High School last home game ever to be played for Basketball. They played against Clayton, the JV won, the V lost but they played one of the best games I've seen. Yet the ref's were absolutely horrible. Even another person that is normally a ref for the district saw the game and was like it was some of the worst referring he had seen also. Regardless I'm proud of them and the effort they put out in playing.

On Saturday I woke up early to take my sis to the airport, but hell she still missed her flight. I went to the gym with my mom and did a bootcamp class, wasn't too much fun and afterwards went to the mall to go to Dick's sporting goods to pick up some heavier weights since the ones I have no longer area challenge to me. Then I walked the mall a few times since I hadn't been out at the Mid Rivers mall for a while. I then went to the Best Buy right next door and saw a few people that I recognized and had some good talks with them, also bought a game for my ps3, I REALLY need to get back into my gaming, then I went home to get dressed, I had been gone so long, I hadn't had time to relax before getting myself together to get with my girls, Amy and Hannah who I've known since Kindergarten, we met out in South County and had dinner and then went to a roller derby which is pretty damn cool.

We also have our own league here in St. Louis http://www.archrivalrollergirls.com , and they are going to soon start a men's league, I told my girls to let me know when they play next. This is definitely an interesting sport.

So today is Sunday and I've been at home just listening to the rain which I absolutely love, probably will chill indoors today, or I might try to go to the gym and workout but right now I'm just watchin some TELLY;)

Enjoy your day, I plan on enjoying mine.

Why I'm about to throw my laptop

I'm up right now dealing with my laptop and Im so fed up with it I'm about to throw it at the wall. It's so frustrating sometimes to deal with old ass technology when you know something new and better is currently it out. Take for instance my sister called me and she FINALLY has found out about Skype. I've had the program on my laptop for about 2 years, never had a problem with it, UNTIL NOW. She was online wanting to talk to me, and so I try to go online and it wouldn't connect, so I upgrade the software and pray that will fix the problem. nada so I restart my laptop and even take my firewall down to see if that will fix the problem. again nothing works, so I finally said fuck it I'm done and just deleted Skype off my laptop.

I can't stand when something you are used to all the time just for no reason bails out on you, sounds like relationships. Anyway, for those who normally would see me on Skype, this is my farewell message, I'm not fucking with that garbage anymore, if you want to see and talk to me it will have to be through GoogleTalk, my username is MsJazz79.

What a day makes

Well good evening/night/morning, from where you might be, right now I'm watching Morel Orel (cartoon network for those not of my world ;)) I had work today as usual but while at work I was thinkin about the months ahead and what i want to do. I've obviously have been looking for a new job since the announcements were made in December about all employees in my school district being let go as of June 30th, 2010.

I'm wondering do I still want to stay in the educational field being an administrative assistant because the hours go well with me working out and taking college courses. After work today I went up to UMSL to speak with my counselor because I think I have FINALLY decided on a major and possibly even a minor. So spoke with her for about 20 minutes and she helped me out to make sure if that is the field I want to go into. So I have further reading to do, to make sure it's the route i want to take.

So after that I went home and chilled out, then went to Best Buy to take in my laptop because the AC adapter that I received as a replacement, had fried on me, at least that's what I thought. I get to the store and the tech tries it out and what do you know....the sucker worked. Yet I also told him my battery wasn't holding a charge like it used to, so he put in an order request. Afterwards I went home and I've been chillin ever since.

This weekend I have my family's annual mardi gras party to look forward to. So I plan on enjoying on myself on Saturday, recouping on Sunday and back on my grind Monday.

Just an absent thought for those who watch cartoon network ADULT SWIM like myself, I wish they would take the music from the Adult swim commercials and put them on a cd, they sound interesting;)

New Year possibilites

Well, as this new year comes through most people are trying to make new promises to themselves in regards to how they can become a better human being. Then again you have people who couldn't give a flying leap and think what they were last year is just going to carry over into 2010.

I for one really want to get a handle on my weight. I was doing boxing and racquetball last year and loved it but had stopped because of an injury. Then once I was better I was too engrossed with other stuff to make it a priority. I'm 30 years old yet I feel so much older because of the weight on my frame.

Another goal of mine is to get back into college and REALLY finish up my degree. I've learned from being in my current job that it's not what I want to do for the rest of my life and further more you can never get comfortable with your current surroundings because you alway risk having the rug pulled out from under you. Also it made me appreciate why I need my education and to finish. I feel I am more focused than when I was fresh out of high school. I hated college because of my experiences in high school, I didn't know how to really interact with people especially guys. Now having worked at my present job, I can honestly say that I have obtained a backbone I have never had and quite frankly I have the students and parents of the community to thank for that. lol

Yet my biggest problem is that I'm still wondering what I want to do. So I plan on going to either UMSL (University of Missouri Saint Louis) or the Saint Louis Public Library downtown and taking an aptitude test, to see exactly what I'm good at doing. Another challenge will be trying to find scholarships, not trying to do the loan thing. Yet I really can't see about that until I do my income taxes in February.

Also have to start job hunting to see what's out there. Since where I currently work all employees will lose their jobs on June 30th, 2010. I will definitely try to find a job that works 7:15 am to 3:15 pm, those hours I know will benefit me with school and working out. It's not like retail where I didn't know what my schedule was and it was never consistent.

I also plan on writing more often in my blog. I used to be really on top of this but have let it slip to the sidelines. So here is my first post of the new year. I wish you all well and take care;)